it's the peonies. the peony season. they are the culprit. Lately i've been feeling such a strong sense of nostalgia for last year, and the year before. I remember writing a friend late july and saying one of the things i know i'll miss - seeing the change of seasons, even the little ones throughout summer. all of a sudden there were no more peonies and pompenella roses and I'd be sad, but then i'd turn around and see God was now onto lavender and sunflowers. here, flowers still bloom. all around me. i just don't
A couple of times I've shown JB my inbox for a day, he has only ever been horrified. I get emails on travel, birth control (i'm still not sure why i'm an expert on this!), aspiring planners, life questions, personal emails, and now most are work related. I want to provide the best service to my clients during work hours. Which made me think - is emailing a response on my phone really serving them? no. not in my case, it doesn't work for me. it just gives me a weird sense of control. Plus, sending something that says "sent from my iphone" causes me to cringe. Providing the best possible service to my clients means sitting down at specific times to just answer emails. So as hard as this is for me, I'm taking mail off of my phone. iGASP.
most importantly - my family (which include my closest friends too). I want to be mindful when I'm with them. present. the kind i felt in basel. few things mattered but who I was with. enjoying their company! truly, it is company to be enjoyed. and for that i am/was/will be grateful. i don't want to take my time with loved ones for granted. i've sort of realized that not every moment must be documented to be enjoyed. that's a tough one for me.
and a last bit that's pretty random: going along with the theme for this whole post:
have you ever read "gift from the sea" ? the author goes away for a while to the beach (a girl after my own heart). she discovers all of these amazing things about life. herself. she's finds contentment. she feels peaceful. and though it's been ages since I've read the book... the main gist is that you can keep that contentment alive long after you've left a place of peace. it doesn't come easy. you have to be conscious about your decision. protect it even.
::: winner of the Hattie Sparks giveaway is: megan of pearls & petticoats. congrats!! :::